wow.. its actually all over. High school is now in the past. I'm not exactly sure how i feel about that. but the whole time we were at graduation - like listening to the speaker (who sucked) and stuff i saw Jessica (my best friend). she was in the orchestra so she was like right in front of me. and it kept reminding me of all my friends that are still in high school. I'm scared that I'm going to change and lose touch with my friends as I make new ones. but i guess if i don't want to lose them then i won't but it still bothers me. I love you all!!!!

Finally back from Chicago. It was AMAZING. The trip involved a lot of drama and stuff but it was kewl. Chorale did freakin' amazing and made a whole bunch of people cry, but for some reason we only got a silver rating. Weird huh? esp. when the judges didn't really have that much to say. Anywayz... freakin' AP Stat test tomorrow. ::sigh:: i don't really want to take it but oh well, failing tests is fun. (yea right)  So my parents are being really dumb. I think i'm getting grounded for taking my laptop on the trip cuz today my mom was like, did you take your computer with you? and i was like yea, i had work to do and she was like well i told you not to and i was like well, its my computer and i had work to do and she was like its not always your decision ..pretty gay. Worse than that is, my parents won't help pay for a cell phone at all and i can't really afford one. I was like, so, you don't care if i'm out driving and you have no clue where i'm at, or if i get into an accident or my car breaks down in the middle of nowhere or in a bad neighborhood. I won't have a phone to call for help and that doesn't bother you? They were like no, you can put your hood up and wait for a police officer. I mean what the fuck? I'm actually trying to make a responsible decision here and protect myself and they are against it? dont they care if something happens to me? I'm thinking about getting one on my bank account without them knowing about it and not tell them anything, like not calling them AT ALL with it. and they wonder why i don't like them? don't get me wrong, i respect them for the way they raised me and stuff (mostly) but i think this is a reasonable concern that they are being ridiculous about. Everyone, literally EVERYONE else i know their parents MAKE them have a phone if they are going to be driving. (girls that is) -- yay for stress